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Post by Xyrad on Nov 15, 2011 3:42:50 GMT -5
So the "new" guy we got in the trade was an associate from when I was hired. The guy didn't even shave (though his beard was even so he's within store standards), so one of my buddies and I will be referring to him as Santa throughout the holidays. Rediscovered a fondness for Legos; I'm currently working on a chess set with the spare bricks floating around the house.
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Post by FragrantMemory on Nov 16, 2011 1:03:18 GMT -5
Nothing in particular. I'm relatively at peace right now.
Microecon exam tomorrow morning, then going to tackle next week's work load so I can do other things over the Thanksgiving holiday. It'll still be work, but infinitesimally more important in the grand scheme of things.
Re-examined the area of last week's wound on my nose... strange scene, to see enlarged and deep hair follicles there. It makes my skin crawl to see clusters of holes ... but it's not trypophobia, because it doesn't send me into agitation/frenzy.
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Post by FragrantMemory on Nov 22, 2011 1:22:09 GMT -5
Kid cousin called and just basically admitted his mother was worried I would... cut the cord.
Just how much has she seen, anyway?
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Post by Xyrad on Nov 22, 2011 4:09:52 GMT -5
Office spouse showed up (hereafter to be known as Carmen) unexpectedly at work; saw a blur of black and green come shooting out of my peripheral vision as she tackle-hugged me. We now have plans to hang out in the morning before her shift. I should probably get to sleep soon, lol. Work feels different now that she's been transferred. There are so many new people compared to just two months ago and so many people who were there before me have found new jobs or been transferred as well. Things are different now. I think I'm ready to move up now that one of our supervisors has left, too.
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Post by sammy on Nov 22, 2011 15:53:22 GMT -5
how can that anti, control his followers (little souless puppets in strings), what lies does it say about me, curse it to hell xD
other thoughts, want 2012 to surpass antis earnings xD as that will be payback xD
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Post by FragrantMemory on Nov 24, 2011 4:22:26 GMT -5
They're blurring again. But why try to define things when I know it'll only be to our detriment. I already ran away once. I can't compromise someone else's feelings due to my own impetuousness. Just play by ear...
It only took a few minutes for me to find myself completely off-balance, feeling the extremities. So wrong, but so right. So exhilarating, but unfolding with insecurity. So ardent, but so withdrawn. So familiar, yet so foreign. So convinced that time would change everything - and yet it was as if they picked up from where I had thought they had closed. I had been so determined to close it. Because I had tried to define it but I couldn't. I thought the distance was best for all parties. But I was wrong, and I just can't see how I could have fared if it were true. I don't know how clearing clogged arteries works, but I don't have to be the stark contrast of a bumbling loony to know that this is what it feels like to have my heart unearthed so that the feelings could flow free again, and fly - because here is where I don't have to be guarded, or afraid. I have never been wounded here. Whatever confusion and misunderstanding occurred was due to my own internalization, and impetuousness. I wouldn't be treated any different, despite my growing intolerance, my increasing withdrawal. Doomed as I may have felt, I never gave up hope because I always had this place, this place I shouldn't have ever tried to define.
Despite what I may think, life comes full circle. No matter what I do, it always seems to come to this. I'll accept it, because I can't live in a world so empty and unsympathetic. Try as I might, the memories that both break my heart and make me whole have given me wings to get where I am now. To simply sweep everything under the rug and filter everything - even the best that ever graced me - would drag with it my sanity.
I feel it in my bones every time. It's like the first breath of fresh air.
There's a life inside of me That I can feel again It's the only thing that takes me Where I've never been ~ I don't care if I lost everything that I have known It doesn't matter where I lay my head tonight Your arms feel like home
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Post by sammy on Nov 24, 2011 16:16:38 GMT -5
^ neice Ling, true life does come full circle, keep your wings
I feel selfish sometimes, my problems bought on from bad choice of friends, stupid mistake, and health anxiety, seems when things look good, it seems to good to be true, and revert back to the negative thoughts
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Post by Xyrad on Nov 27, 2011 15:06:54 GMT -5
Black Friday, havoc. Yesterday, chaos. Tonight? Dunno yet... pandemic, I'd wager.
We've had so much traffic these past couple of nights and we're sold out of so many things. We'll finally get a new shipment tomorrow so that shouldn't be too bad, but people have been leaving our store in such a wreck, it's been taking us over 2 hours to straighten everything up, restock, and mop (We are not a restaurant! Why do I keep finding spilled soda, chunks of bread, and chicken bones??)
At least my co-workers are keeping me in good spirits.
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Post by sammy on Nov 27, 2011 15:10:55 GMT -5
Yup niece Ling, just set backs xD
Yo Alex xD
bought SACD/dvd player on ebay, wondering what mods i could do to it xD
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Post by FragrantMemory on Nov 30, 2011 20:09:53 GMT -5
He asked me where we are.
Ambiguity is our reality.
But I'm okay with if, and so is he.
Just go with the flow, right?
Besides, I just want to shove everything under the rug temporarily and go hiking.
Also can't wait for D. to return to California. Known the guy for what feels like forever. He disappears senior year, and right when we've come to an understanding, he leaves again.
I wonder how long I should wait before I pull the prank with my JehDer` and my HD.
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Post by sammy on Dec 2, 2011 4:56:17 GMT -5
thinking of my dad, also worrying over lips, and chances i caught a flu T_T, but sure just anxiety
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Post by FragrantMemory on Dec 10, 2011 19:42:55 GMT -5
Crazy drivers thug lifing the one way lanes... it was a gwai lo, too. Come to think of it, maybe it's better they didn't come. Freaking hate it when a perfectly lighthearted atmosphere is dampened by one person being an anal, uptight madam fortress mommy. I don't know why some people can't let others BE. Just TCARKDMMJ11%gwailo please. Don't need any tension over the holidays. This person complains/cries over every wretched thing - as if the world revolves around them and others are simply there to please. Give them something to cry about if this keeps up... brat. Such a sissy at heart and yet makes trouble for their so-claimed loved ones. So bloody selfish. NO CHRISTMAS PRESENT! I can safely say none of us will waste any time/money on them. Need to stock up on stationary.
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Post by externalmoon on Jan 23, 2012 17:45:15 GMT -5
sad stuff
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Post by spammy on Jan 29, 2012 22:27:48 GMT -5
Tweetie Sweetie <3
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Post by Xyrad on Jan 30, 2012 0:20:31 GMT -5
Doctor Who - A wonderfully quirky, brilliant, British program about a 900-year-old humanoid alien (Timelord) with a spaceship disguised as a telephone box that travels through time and space called the TARDIS (Time And Relative Dimensions In Space).
Goodness, I love this show.
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